as the title suggests. i'm feeling - unloved and unpretty.

i know all this bullshit might come across as juvenile and stupid to some. but are you telling me you have never felt unloved? unpretty?

you know the feeling that makes you feel like no one in the world really/truly cares about you. yeah sure they're there. but you know. you just feel as if they're just trying to be nice. it ain't genuine on any level whatsoever. i don't know.

the worst part of it all. is i feel it at home.

i feel as if no one at home cares. i feel so left out. an out cast. i know. it sounds so dumb to even say it. but i can't help but feel this way right now.

and there's this huge and terrible inferiority complex sweeping me over. oh god. i'm so pathetic. i just feel like i can't be half as good as anyone else. i'm always thinking that i won't be as good as the next person. (i just said the same thing but in different sentences. -_-)

and then there's the unpretty thing. it's so ridiculous but i guess every girl would go through it every now and then. where they feel like they're the ugliest thing on the planet. ok. sure. there are worst cases out there than me. but i can't help but feel like i look exactly like a monkey's ass.

people in general love beautiful people. that's a fact of life. people love beautiful things. and people are no exception.

when a beautiful woman walks past. a man would normally stare. duh! i think they're wired to do that. but if the same woman walks past another woman. the weird thing is. the lady will stare too. funny.

it's either that she's in awe. or she's so jealous she just wants to say, "oh who does she think she is? miss universe?"

yes. so typical of women huh?

ok. i have no idea why i talked about that or what it has to do with anything i was initially talking about. hmm. oh. maybe i'm feeling like the jealous one right now? *sigh* no la. i'm only like that when the girl's really acting so b**chy-ly (no such word. i know.).

so the verdict's out. i shall go for plastic surgery - get my boobs done, my nose done, everything. to make myself oh so beautiful so that people around would just die when i walk past.

NOT!

no one would care about me after my surgery when i bloat up and look like a dead body that's been soaking in the sea for the last couple of weeks.

when will this emotional low end?