yep. i can't hate the whole world. i've only got myself to blame. yup. so i hate myself.

i don't know if i'm dramatic. i don't know if i'm just naive. i don't know anything anymore. i just don't.

i wanna run away and stick my head in the sand. i wanna just blame everybody else for what has happened. i wanna turn back the hands of time and do everything differently. people who say that they never wanna change anything about them or anything from the past must be really full of bullshit.

i've got a whole shitload of weight on my shoulders. i don't know if i put it on myself. maybe. i'm sick of everything. everyone. just absolutely disgusted. pissed off.