it's a monday. i'm at work. i'm stoning in front of the com coz i don't know what to do. i've got crappy deadlines to meet. i'm so dead. 4 more weeks till the end of SIP. it seems like forever. someone just kill me now. end my suffering.

i can't imagine how people can work and work and work like this. i wonder if anyone in the office feels the way that i do. like. omg. was this what they wanted to do ever since they were a little boy/girl? if it were. then i think they were really sick children! no childhood whatsoever. omg. your dream is to get stuck in an office all day long staring at a screen?

so i guess this brings us back to reality. not everyone gets to live their dreams. not everyone gets to do the things they want to do. not everyone is as lucky. not everyone gets to be happy.

it's a fact.

it's really quite sad uh. like. they say Singapore is something like a land of opportunities. they can just kiss my ass la ok. oh. i just remembered. on saturday. this person called me saying she's doing a survey for some Professor Alfred Choy from NTU. one of the questions was "do you think that by using the internet (or something like that), the government will be more willing to listen to the youths?" and i was like "NO!" and the person laughed.

anyways. back to the government kissing my ass. yeah. Singapore is a land of opportunity for the rich. the SUPER DUPER UBERLY OVERLY smart. the people who know how to kiss ass. the people who know people who are rich/SUPER DUPER UBERLY OVERLY smart/people who know how to kiss ass.

i guess if any government official or person who knows how to kiss ass see this entry. they'd probably just throw me in jail. yep. jail. that's how people who have something to cover up cover up their mess.

i'm totally feeling pissed off right now.

in society there is a status quo. and wit each status quo there is a social norm. break free from it and people call you weird. in society there is also such a thing as stereotyping. people just generalize too much. if you're not good at math and science. you're not smart at all. even the Sports school wants their students to be good at EVERYTHING. and when i say everything i mean EVERYTHING SINGLE GOD DAMNED THING!

what i think is that the government should open their big fat money stamped eyes. and see that EVERYONE should get an equal opportunity as the next person. why should only the brainiac and the "paris hilton ala Singapore" get the things they want?

looking back at my entry. am i just being sore? am i just feeling pissed that i didn't do my best in the previous years? omg. i'm so contradictive nowadays. *sigh*

feeling even more like crap now. but yeah. bottom line. Singapore should just break free from this communist rule.

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